Wednesday, 16 July 2014
It's like i've been smacked in the face. All these years, what have i been waiting for? What have i been fighting for? I have to let go. To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and learning. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept the change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is to grow up. It's a battle i know i don't have any chance in winning. But i still fought anyway. To my last possible effort. And a huge part of me, just died. Rest in peace, Lily.